"My Smile"

A spontaneous reaction to the unpredictable

Showcasing a pearly structure once braced

Mute with nothing to tell you

Crutched cheekbones validating what has taken place.

My Smile..

Substituting thoughts that crossed my mind

Harboring an expression meant to be shared

Illuminating one’s day leaving darkness behind

Confirming pleasure stretched from ear to ear.

 

Polarizing minus the presence of a lens

Capturing a treasured moment for a  reason

Complimentary, negating any expense

Etched in place holding its position.

 

Optimistic in hopes of it being contagious

An effortless extraction of kindness from within

Perfect remedy for adversity that may surface

Simply realizing the cause of  its origin.

My SMILE…J

 

"The Insomniac"

Watching the 2^nd hand tick thru my 3^rd eye

Scrolling the menu viewing each channel

Tossing under the covers given it another try

Memoirs of an insomniac are consider fictional.

Believing sleep is the ‘Nephew’ of death

Darkness lurks throughout 

Heart calmly beating as I count every breath…

Sigh..

Sigh…

But nothing escapes my mouth.

Talk to me..

What should I do?

Whispering syllables as fingers tap on my chest

Once my mind stops thinking

Then my thoughts will never be processed.

Please..

Just a few winks.

Just a few winks

Am I missing something?

Glad my mind kept my body up to have a convo like this

Fighting to get back time already missed

For so long I felt like shyt.

You can now see a side of me that I never thought would exist.

It’s 5:15 a.m

Damn !!

Obituary written preparing for my funeral

Screaming ‘Uncle’ take me now

Been trying all night to listen to you

I said my prayers so point me to the clouds…

I’m ready!!

Hopefully this convo continues so my dreams are preserved

All my energy has left my body I’m totally spent

Tell my daughter that I love her

As I’m place in the museum of wonderment..

I’m @ peace now cause I’m with my two brothers..

I’m tired..

Goodnight…..:(

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"Blackjack"

Numbers accumulated in the game to win

Legal to purchase a beverage of your choice

Developed a grown mentality so life can begin

Respected perspectives carrying a strong voice.

Blackjack..

 

Engulfing adolescence forecasting the next chapter

Judging your own trials that have  been dealt

Hindsight is always ideal the morning after

In pursuit of a happiness over time that’s heart felt

 

Anticipating a hit to secure a better hand

Patience embedded as your bank slowly doubles

Confidence in a plan that’s in high demand

Anxious for results disregarding a potential shuffle.

 

Embracing adulthood and the immediate future

Privy of what is still to come

Independent dreams healed with a suture

Celebrating the digits, two and one…

BLACKJACK!!!

 

"My Eyes"

Shifting left and right taking note of  the unnoticed

Raising flags in between any suspicions

Prize is within my grasps so I maintain my focus

Still a lot to be done seeking a distant mission..

My eyes!

Protected by a lens to shelter what’s inside

Unexpected situations accompanied by frustrations

Crocodiles tears packed with pride

Moistening my cheeks cause of bad intentions.

It’s ok

These are my eyes…

Weathering storms as I umbrella my heart

Conscience of life long birthmarks on the surface

Embracing friendships I’m about to embark

Open-minded with a Kleenex for a purpose

Just in case.

My eyes!!

Hypnotizing my opposition with a candid stare

Deciphering the manufactured and genuine

Critiquing everything outside this perfect square

Visioning how this “BOND” will end.

Things are clearer now…

My EYES!!!

"A True Friend"

Adopted into a role accepting many responsibilities

Safeguarding secrets one is willing to share

Conditioned to bear the burden of  self-pities

Available upon request with an open ear.

 

An alter ego with an ego

Carpooling similar dreams in life

Understanding all that is inevitable

Checking positions that don’t seem right.

 

Trust and honesty are the prerequisites

One is only needed till the end

Thoughtful but this is an act of selfishness

Chosen hoping I won’t have to do so again.

 

Casting shadows upon each other

Watching a rear with an eye of an eagle

A blessing from above has been delivered to ya

Withstanding any signs of betrayal.

 

Irreplaceable for reasons left unspoken

Embodied with morals and values so profound

A shoulder in sight for a heart that may be broken

Always assuring your feet are on solid ground.

 

Find yours...

I have mine…!!!

"The Bridge"

Fearless of  all the pressures I have to overcome daily

Expecting my spitting image’s hands to intersect

Lotion my extended arms with tar so burns are 2^nd degree

Naked to the world only getting our feet wet.

Brrr

The Bridge!

Abandoned by engineering parents @ birth

Standing on our own learning how to survive

Paying a toll validating my worth

Being pimped by the city for rest of our lives.

Working 24/7 365 days a year

All my complaints seem to fall on a deaf ear.

Crying..:((           

Whose next?

Servicing cars, trucks, bikes even loco-motive trains

Wishing mother nature can bathe me in her rain.

Crying..:((

Being played like a game of cards

Must have been dealt a bad hand from the beginning

Stuck in a lose lose situation from the start

Never having the chance of winning.

Bridge!!

Easing travels being abused in the process

Envious thoughts debating whether to set a trap

Collapsing to river floors leaving people in distress,

Cause all I ever wanted to do is Bridge a gap.

The BRIDGE!!! 

"Cover Up"

When you look in the mirror what do you see?

You or a reflection of who you aspire to be?

Being that a reflection has blemishes is it really you?

So why is a mirror used to help you put make-up on the way you do?

Are you afraid of you?

Afraid to reveal the blessings passed on to you...

Cover up..

Hibernate within..

Come out of your shell when it's to your liking

Liking that others like you for who you're not

Do you blame the mirror or you?

Critiquing flaws taking away from your heritage

Short term satisfaction for the love of an image

Thought you were proud?

Disowning self from a culture is belittling family pride

It's like breaking a branch off a tree with unlimited rings inside.

A weed looking good next to the stump knowing in due time

Enhancing the physical leaves the natural behind..

Feel better?

Cover up..

Continue with the make-up to make up for that insecurity

Looking for a compliment for internal reassurance

Avoiding the awareness of one's self-pity

Assuming role of ugly duckling doesn't stand a chance.

Thought you were proud...

Cover up then..!!

"Fightin' Cancer"

Invading matter that matters over time

Transforming into something a bat couldn't see

Detected early so it remains benign

Counting blessings while down on my knees.

Pray with me...

Destructive traits hailing death in a bottle

Recycling emotions into tanks that are septic

Faith mounting any percentage appraised cynical

Blaming abnormalities found to be genetic.

DAMN..!!

Radiation waving @ cells within reach

Adversity defining character in need of support

Reciting lessons conveyed in speech

Strength prayers answering DEVIL knocks @ the door.

Gulp..

Short-handing an obituary for a rainy day

Diagnosing a lump in life so fond

Oncologist confirming everything is okay

Family relieved that there is still a "BOND".

Phew..

Precautionary screenings avoiding a recurrence

Stature Sapped from therapy that's hectic

Doves constantly flying in my presence

Knowing I Never Would Have Made It..

Without YOU..

I'm Stronger...!!